used to empty (2017)

by Zack de la Rouda

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Dan sent me these songs two years ago. I wrote most of them around then. I wrote "Always" two weeks ago. I wrote the second verses for "Used to Empty," "Fences," "No Time To Sleep," and "What's Good" two weeks ago. I almost feel like all music these days needs to be anti-Trump protest music? This is not a protest album. These were songs nearly gone in the bin that Dan and I really didn't want to lose. Fuck Donald Duck I will have more politically angrier music soon. I love you all

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released January 31, 2017

produced by Dan Peters
lyrics by Dan Peters and Zack de la Rouda
vocals by Dan Peters and Zack de la Rouda
cover art by Oz Thomas

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Zack de la Rouda Portland, Maine

i write songs and rap about weird stuff like love self-actualization civilization depression anarchism and taoism i like to eat from the garbage even though it's kinda hard to find organic stuff there i spend a lot of time alone somehow i am still releasing music ... more

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Track Name: About Today
i was young once.
eventually everybody must grow up
inevitably what you look for is gon come
so never fear
bottom goes back to the top like a ferris wheel
now i know what’s what
even though i maybe don’t seem to know much
still waters run deep, riverbeds flood
and your cup runneth over
before you know it, you better drink deep
think big, reach up
let the wind in the willows teach us
when i sleep on the pillow
i need to trust with my roots in the dirt
the truth in the earth will be coming up
let me sum it up, growing up never done
childhood go so fast from a young’n to an old woman or man just like that
time goes past, can’t buy it back
it all is a process, watch this
i’ma resurrect myself again like i’m lazarus
stop with the gossip
come and talk to me honestly
we could compromise on the conflict
probably we’re on the same side which is comforting
why do i fiend for a fight like a puff of weed
i’m calm in good company
giving love to the audience is lovely
of course it calls for all sorts, takes all kinds of kinds to find the one source
follow signs and find the truth in all forms,
i’m still tryna talk to you if y’all want
to build still
what’s the real deal
what went wrong
how do we heal pain
i’m trying to try
you were far away today and i
(didn’t ask you why)
Track Name: Buzz ft. Dan Peters
Dan Peters:

Look at me now
I slept through the winter but now I’m awake, yeah, now
was down yesterday but now i’m back buzzing around
got that gleam in my eye cause you know that i finally found
this place, i cant stay here forever, but look at me now
yeah, look at me now


Zack de la Rouda:

spring sprung and i’m thankful
up with the summer sun
wet from the rainfall
i sip a little water as the day start
thinkin thoughts but they ain’t nothing
i’m just humming like a great song
stop and sniff flowers?
i could spend hours in the afternoon
relishing everything cause it’s infinite
after all when you’re in the garden then nothing is ever
actually wrong
it’s all a part of a symphony
it’s incredible to just exist
if you want a better world
better follow your bliss
it’s common sense
symbiotic
we gotta give to get responses
think about it
it’s obvious
mama says from valley floor to the mountain top
do the work and put your trust in the processes
all i’m tryna do is be
in a world where every flower full up with proboscises
who want a buzz?
goodness grief
Track Name: Used to Empty ft. Dan Peters
Dan Peters:

How did we get so used to empty?
the tv seems so friendly
the buildings and the boxes
tunnel vision and every “ism”
why isn’t the moment enough?
why do we need all this goddamn stuff?
i don’t wanna be an alien, no,
i don’t wanna be a tourist,
i don’t want to inhale or have to drink something
just to feel alive
one eye sees the darkness, one sees light

Zack de la Rouda:

i’m inconsistent with it
third eye splits my vision
tapped between the rocks and the rivers and the system
track progress with an asterisk
moving backwards half the time
acting happy but i’m actually out my mind
tryna find a way to combine all these opposing ideals
i’m tryna be the change i wanna see but still just chill
i don’t know if i should watch my weight or pop a pill
if it’s hell or its heaven that we’re in what’s the deal
after working all day i’m very close to the end of my rope
frayed knot tied up and i choke
puff smoke get drunk stay numb
try not to crash
one question that i wonder though
i have to ask

Dan Peters:

How did we get so used to empty?
the tv seems so friendly
the buildings and the boxes
tunnel vision and every “ism”
why isn’t the moment enough?
why do we need all this goddamn stuff?
i don’t wanna be an alien, no,
i don’t wanna be a tourist,
i don’t want to inhale or have to drink something
just to feel alive
one eye sees the darkness, one sees light

Zack de la Rouda:

something like janus with the madness
i see the future and the past, feel it like an actress
healing like a shaman, speaking to the masses
said we don’t need possessions like lennon
imagine
i brandish the microphone like hamilton
shout out to lin-manuel miranda, i’m a fan of him
i view it from a vantage
perspective with compassion,
zoom in with the lenses
see it clearly like i wear a pair of glasses
teaching classes
giving knowledge, always learning more academics
i’m a diamond in the rough lookin polished
climb to the top and then shout to the bottom
that the mountain is a mirage - honest - promise - ponder

Dan Peters:

How did we get so used to empty?
the tv seems so friendly
the buildings and the boxes
tunnel vision and every “ism”
why isn’t the moment enough?
why do we need all this goddamn stuff?
i don’t wanna be an alien, no,
i don’t wanna be a tourist,
i don’t want to inhale or have to drink something
just to feel alive
one eye sees the darkness, one sees light
Track Name: Waiting Patiently ft. Dan Peters
Zack de la Rouda:

i’m waiting patiently
though time is moving slow
slower than ever
still before you know the cold weather come
we’ll remember the summer
and the places that we used to go
let me know if you ever think about it
if you figured out if you want to be with me or to be alone
8 below zero on the summit of the mountain
when i looked into the valley and i thought that i could see my home
it’s wherever you are
when challenges come, hold it down like the keel of a boat
really though, go where the river wanna flow,
if you don’t then you know that you maybe gon sink like a stone
you never know where the path that you on goin to
but im tryna walk with you, A to B
you go your way, i’ll go your way too
or i will wait here patiently

Dan Peters:

so here it goes, check it brother, what a gift you are
sometimes they don't shine but they're still gold bars
that the gods give you to give to the people,
let your art lift us up from where we are
cause i know sometimes some times are hard,
when the present is a maze we're amazed to see
in hindsight how we got from A to B
or when we drop the binary - that's a sight to see
but you wanna know who's walking parallel?
you got me, and your mother, and your sister and your brother,
with father sky above we give love to one another
we all get down but it all comes around
how do i know?
i'm informed by love.
open it up, let it in, in the form of
the work that we do. yeah, me and you.
sometimes time's slow but i can wait and then we'll get to it
Track Name: Fences ft. Mat Murray & Dan Peters
Dan Peters:

sitting round here time and time again
dealing with these old demons once again
how easily we lock it up, we fence it in
holding out, holding out, we hold it in… (x2)

Zack de la Rouda:

i got so many thoughts in my brain
i ain’t even really tryna share ‘em with you
often i self-censor self-consciously
it’s a awful bad habit
and i’m probably paranoid,
but i got more quiet as i grown older
almost like the silence is simpler than acknowledging the obstacles
you could cry on my shoulder
if i wasn’t so tired all night been fighting with the monsters
insomnia leads to exhaustion
sleep for a week then i wonder where the time went
i want peace but i feed off conflict
the pattern is a rut that i’m stuck in and i’m tryna do the opposite
if i’ll be honest, i’m tryna be focused
all my bad thoughts are products of depression
i haven’t been strong enough yet to admit that to myself
but i’m think i’m getting close to
finally learning from the lessons
what’s the point of life if not to cultivate connection?
nothing more righteous than a true pursuit of friendship
the grass not greener
the problem is the fences (the problem is the fences)

Dan Peters:

sitting round here time and time again
dealing with these old demons once again
how easily we lock it up, we fence it in
holding out, holding out, we hold it in… (x2)

Zack de la Rouda:

and i got so many walls in the way
i ain’t even really tryna scale ‘em with you
it’d be way less effort to just wait forever
we'd be safe and comfortable
but that ain’t what we here on Earth for
hold the mirror up
why do we avoid the work ?
why are we subordinate?
why do we confirm to their coordinates?
why’s the world headed for another world war again?
i don’t even know i guess
i’m going through the motions
hold it all together like a yoga pose
it’s hard like a heart of pine or older oak
some like it hot enough to cauterize an open wound
some folks cold like a frozen moat
i’m in the middle yo
sitting on the fence don’t know if to go
left and just end up as depressed
the right way’s wrong like a riddle yo
the pot said the kettle’s cold,
and the cat played the fiddle for us
there’s where the grass is greener
but i’m tryna get my pasture cleaned
i’m past repeating myself
but i’m thinking that the fence is what’s wrong in the first place
for real
Track Name: No Time To Sleep
if this is what i think
i guess the messages i’m telling myself are unhealthy
but i can’t resist
the bad habits are the most ingrained
the comfort zone is comfortable
that’s why the call it it
aw shit
i’m going forward though the past is haunting me
like it often is
i caught a glimpse of what mental health probably is
but i lost it quick
i took a breath and started over from the top again.
props to me
don’t question what is coming next
watch and see
follow nobody with nobody following
don’t fall asleep!
the second time it’s even more difficult to roust from out your dreams,
so i’m not about to ease up, please trust
we need to stay awake
feeling invigorated
jumping in a freezing lake
don’t wait
or you gonna miss the mist on the mountain
it’s no time to sleep
but i’m drowsy

we need to stay awake
feeling defeated day-to-day make me waste away like i’m tired all the time
i make believe i’m making changes
and i’m afraid i’m in the same place i was in when i was seventeen, my god
been treading water
when every river headed to a falls
i’m fed up with it all
if i’ll be honest
i ain’t even really ate for days
fallen off dandelion coffee
sipping on that store bought
with a word of caution
from the mouth of a narcissist
if you give up on your dreams you won’t ever be at peace
it really doesn’t matter if you good or bad at anything
cause you gotta give love up to receive
better late than never as far as learning lessons goes
when it gets too heavy let it go
if you wait forever you won’t change for the better
cause of entropy
get it in your memory
no sleep
Track Name: What's Good ft. Dan Peters
Dan Peters:

Let’s talk about what’s good!
We’ll focus on the sun
Get wet in the rain again, playing games just like when we were young
we’ll get together and we’ll do something better than when we were
sittin alone and thinkin separate was better
if you’re feeling down and spinning around
i wish you would
come talk about what’s good


Zack de la Rouda:

we’re alive, right?
you already got two gifts in the morning when you opened up your eyes
you got problems?
we gon fix ‘em
and if you’re lonely then we’re gon visit
we all got a part to play, a song to sing,
life’s an opera stage,
and i wanna see far but i constantly
confuse where we are
with where i want to be,
there’s no stopping me
we gotta see what we got is a gift,
i give thanks like i’m bowing my head
i’m bout bliss,
it’s a game and i’m counting my chips
we gotta play for a little bit - i’m going out on a limb
when i say it’s a beautiful day, i’m going out on a whim
i’m going down for a swim
you could come for a walk around
if you know what i’m talking about

Dan Peters:

Let’s talk about what’s good!
We’ll focus on the sun
Get wet in the rain again, playing games just like when we were young
we’ll get together and we’ll do something better than when we were
sittin alone and thinkin separate was better
if you’re feeling down and spinning around
i wish you would
come talk about what’s good


Zack de la Rouda:

let’s talk bout the good parts,
look at this:
i got food in the fridge
and the house got a roof on,
and my car gon start
at least i got car
even if its falling apart
i got uber
got a bus to the
job that i got
at least i got a job too bruh
i'm calm like a buddha
my heart in my palm like a wu sau
the horse and the cart getting threw out
now look around
if you got nothing, want nothing
if you want what you got, then you won something
i want love and a couple of friends, not one dozen
you might wonder but one doesn’t
check too much, regret too much,
keep flowing through the rapids
be peaceful but don’t be passive
i reveal when i’m rapping
you know a lot of real good things happen
Track Name: Always
i’m always writing
i’m always motivated
nah, i’m lying - i’m always in denial
i’m like a little child
i always end up wanting what i can’t have
and then always be complaining
i’m always lost.
always on the path though.
i am always mad stoned,
keep that on the downlow.
im always amped though i act calm:
camouflage -
always with my atlas on,
look at how how i carry on.
the globe on my back but i’m always strong.
stone-face poker game, fold like origami.
i’m always on edge
i sieze an opportunity to forgive an offense…
i always am a mess….
i confess
im buried under pressure
i am stressed
im always count my blessings, i am blessed
i’m always tryna open and compress
im always vocal cause you know i always gotta get it off my chest
focused on my steps,
it’s true what they say that you meet god on the road to self
i’m impressed
i reflect
always check myself,
i’m a wreck already
i come correct
lil niccolo makavelli
i’ll at the deli talkin bout the settlements
the type to always rock a keffiyeh on hannukah
hella pissed
always with the eloquence
what i mean like cruella is
i always get too deep, i’m irrelevant
i’m always giving speech that’s compelling though
i only spit on beats that are very dope
got these lyrics in my head for forever yo
it’s like the ink in my pen is indelible